Am I Black Enough For You?

First, allow me to say...I'm Back. B*tch. Now that I have gotten that out of my system let me get to the point. There have been a lot of situations in my life that people have identified me as not very "black." Many have done this by calling me an "oreo," or the bolder offenders got right down to brass tacks and called me a "fag." To those people: F$CK YOU. Now, I will admit that stereotypically, I am not very black. Am I from the hood? NOPE. Do I speak proper english? YUP. Do I enjoy Waka Flocka or Gucci Man's music? F*CK NAW. Are my parents still together? YUP. Have I been convicted of a crime? NOPE. Hell, I don't even like fried seafood or ribs. But damn, I love big booties and watermelon. Either way, you get the point.

For years, I did everything in my power to seem more black in the eyes of people I thought mattered. I tried talking differently, dressing differently, dating a different kind of girl (well...let's be honest. These were not girls, they were "rats." Actually, an even more accurate classification would be to say they were "mice" due to my age. But once again I digress...), associating with a different crowd, and even dumbing things down so my "niggas" could relate to me more. But, no matter how hard I tried, something wasn't right. All those things I did never had any profound effect on my "black meter." So, all the way through high school and even now I play the "white guy with black skin role." However, I realized something recently...I don't give a flying f*ck what y'all consider black. B*tch I'm me and I'm black as hell.

Being "black" has nothing to do with how you dress, speak, your economic status, or even the things you like to eat. Being black has everything to do with your heritage and what it represents. Being black can mean so many different things to so many people. So, why do we limit it? But, I'll answer the question, "Am I Black Enough For You?" Probably not. First of all, I'm brown (sexual chocolate to be exact...sorry fellas) Secondly, I'm not living my life for anyone but Christ and myself so whether I'm black enough for those that say otherwise is irrelevant. Finally, I like me. I used to really dislike myself for being different. Now, I think its my favorite part of me. I highly doubt I'll ever be considered black enough for the majority of people I encounter. Regardless, we are all individuals and we should embrace our differences and similarities.

-Nick